"Happy 113th Monthsary" is a Greeting from a Desperate Lonely Heart

November 17, 2016

When you woke up one day and you'll realized that today is your supposed-to-be-a-special-day as lovers but then again reality will slap on your hard face that it's now just an illusion that only running in your head for a couple of years already (Since October 21, 2012). Time to wake up to reality but still.. I don't know.

Today I greeted him with "Happy 113th Monthsary" and saw that he opened it, smile in my face is all over. Thanks for opening it, man. You don't know how I'm crazy happy for that small gesture because you did not block me (yet).

Of course, I know one day, I'll be completely over you but as of now, I'm savoring a moment of day-dreaming about you. I love you, man, as always.

Time Of Healing

October 18, 2016

After you ignore all my annoying messages, our common friends wanted a reunion. But knowing that you're coming, I started to think what to do when I'm going to see you face to face for the first time, after you leave the house completely and avoided to see me. I started crying, maybe because I missed you so much already. I wanted to hug you, I wanted to kiss you but I can't do it anymore because you're not going to let me that's why I've decided not to come.

I know things are going to change now. I am not going to see you for awhile in a gathering of our common friends just like before simply because I am going to avoid to see you anymore. But who knows, when my love for you will totally fade away, maybe it would be the right time to say hi and hello even just for a casual hi and hello but for now, I can't do it.

Posting this last message I've sent in whatsapp without knowing tears running fast down to my cheeks.

Caught Having Sex

August 30, 2016

Ito na yong pangawalang sleepover ng BF mong si Dan sa bahay. Una, noong Friday, August 19, at pangalawa ay Friday ulit August 26.

Noong August 19, hindi ako natulog buong gabi para lang mahuli kyong mag-sex kaso bigo ako eh. Siguro kapaan lang ung ginawa nyo or kung may sex man siguro hindi ako marunong tumayming. Pero noong August 26, naiihi lang ako at napansin kong nakaurong ung upuan at masyadong tahimik kayo sa sala kya dahan-dahan akong lumabas ng kwarto para silipin sana kyo kung tulog na ba kayo at kung magkayakap kyo natulog pero laking gulat ko pagbukas ko ng ilaw para uminom ng tubig at syempre sabay silip na din kung magkayakap nga kayo pero hindi lang pala yakap ang makikita ko kundi ang shortless nyong katawan na natataranta kung ano ang tatakpan kung titi ba o puwet. Ako din na nagulat na nakita kyong nakahubad, di ko din alam kung anong gagawin o sasabihin. Gusto ko sanang sabihin na "Sige lang ituloy nyo lang, pwedeng manood?" pero di ko mapigilang mangiti at matawa dahil sa pagkataranta ni Dan. Pero ung titig mo sa akin man, di ko din matingnan na para bang lulunukin akong buhay sa galit.

Pagkatapos nun, hindi na ako natulog para silipin sana kung itutuloy nyo, mapanood ko man lang sana ng buo kaso parang tinigil nyo na eh. Kc napansin ko sinisilip-silip nyo din ako kung lalabas ako ng kwarto o hindi. Hahaha! Sayang!

Sa totoo lang hindi ko alam kung anong nararamdaman ko that time. Pero one thing is for sure, naiinggit lang ako.

Kiss By Mistake

August 19, 2016

Hibang na kung hibang pero nakakatuwa pag in love ka man kc lagi mo akong napapagkamalan na bagong bf mo kagabi. Ung mga bagay na hindi mo ginagawa sa akin, nagagawa mo pag in love ka. Tulad ng pagsabi ng "I love you" in the middle of your sleep, pagpasok ng kamay mo sa shorts ko, pag kiss sa lips na kala mo hindi nagkita ng sobrang tagal. Wow, the best. Kaso ilang seconds ko lang maramdaman un kc bigla ka nalang tititig sa akin tapos ung mukhang disappointed agad makikita ko kc hindi pala ako ung mga dapat mong alayan ng mga un. Tapos sabay tulak ng malakas na kala mo may ketong ako.

Natutuwa lang ako kc kahit ilang segundo lang naramdaman mo kong mahal mo ko at importante ako sayo kahit sa ilusyon ko lang lahat un. Hindi mo man to pinaramdam noon sa akin, kc baka di mo tlga ako minahal, pero at least ngaun, naramdaman ko na sya.

Oo, aminin ko naiinggit ako sa kanila, lalo na sa bago mo ngaun na si kay Dan kc masyado kang passionate sa kanya. Ngaun ka lang sobrang lakas ng loob kc para dalhin sya sa bahay at maglambingan kayo kahit na anjan pa ung mga kapatid mo. Ako dati, hanggang ngaun, matabi lang sayo ng konti, tinutulak mo na ako na sobrang lakas na kala mo may nakakahawang sakit ako. Masagi ka lang ng konti, nanlilisik na mata na para bang lalamunin ako ng buhay. Kaya di ko talaga maiwasang mainggit pero hanggang inggit lang ako.

Ganun tlga ang buhay.. Inggit-inggit lang pag may time.

Mikko is Over, Dan is In!

August 18, 2016

Definitely no more Mikko in your life kc meron ka ng Dan. Last Saturday, August 13, 2016 ang first meeting nyo ni Dan, overnight agad and very hot sex. Wow, noong si Mikko begging for sex, hindi mo napagbigyan pero itong si Dan first meeting palang hot sex na agad. At kinabukasan dinala mo pa sa bahay.

First time ito kc dinala mo sya sa bahay na nandon 3 mga kapatid mo. At super sweet pa kayo. Maglambingan ba daw sa labas. I don't know if you really love him already kc parang kelan mo lang to nakilala. I think nasa 1 week palang kyong magka-call and text then sex agad then boom, official, kyo na.

Base sa picture, mas cute si Mikko kesa dito kay Dan pero mukhang malaki naman ang titi netong si Dan kya siguro totoong nahulog ka na sa kanya. Ang tanong ko nalang ay kung wala ba tlgang sex appeal ung si Mikko para di ka pumayag sa Sogo invites nya? Hmmmp.

Kahapon, naabutan ko na naman si Dan sa sala, August 17, katatapos lang nyong kumain. Buti pa kyo sabay na kumakain. At pakilala mo na naman sa akin, as usual, pinsan. Hahaha.. Ok, eh di pinsan.

Michael Dan Angelo +639162258356

Mikko is Over?

June 8, 2016

Medyo matagal na din kitang hindi nakita man na lumabas tuwing Lunes, Miyerkules at Biyernes ng gabi at buong araw ng Sabado o Linggo. Kya hula ko hiwalay na kyo ni Mikko. Hindi ka na din laging nahawak sa cellphone mo na laging may inaabangang message.

Kagabi, nakita ko number ni Mikko sa "spam numbers" na. Huhulaan ko pa ba kung bakit?

Kya lang mukhang may bago ka na naman kausap. Swerte naman nya. Sana makilala ko rin sya para ma-stalk ko din. LOL!

Begging for Sex

April 20, 2016

After putting all your passwords in your phones, I can't open them anytime soon. You even keep on changing it from time to time. I Can't imagine how you manage to memorize it daily. Ah no, I know that you can do that coz you're very smart and very good in memorizing numbers specially password just to keep your secret safe. Maybe, you have some kind of patterns to do it. I must learn it. Nyahaha

Anyways, one night, you forgot to put password so this is my chance to scan your convo. Hmmmp.. Honestly, natawa ako at nakaka-relate sa kanya.

Dear mylabs.. ooops..

"Mylabs, may sasabihin ako sayo pero wag ka magagalit.

Mylabs hindi ba talaga pwedeng magcheck in tayo sa Sogo? Sorry kung ampangit pakinggan. Hindi lust ang intention ko huh. Gusto lang kitang masolo intimately. Sex is not that essential, pero mylabs part din kasi yun.

I'll be honest, hinahanap ko rin yun. Medyo weird lang kasi 2 months na tayo pero wala pang nangyayari sa atin. May pangangailangan din ako mylabs.. tayo.. i hope u understand. Sana may mangyari na sa atin bago mabunot yung mga ngipin ko. Sana mauunawaan mo pero di kita pinipilit.

Im just being straightforward with you na WE NEED IT. (nakz, all caps para intense).

Sana marunong ka ring makinig.

Ngayong ko lang talaga na-experience mylabs na umabot na ng 2 months na hindi nagsex. Super unusual.

Sana mapagbigyan mo ang hiling ko na before akong bunutan this Friday. May mangyari sa ain.

Sorry mylabs ah. Nagpakatotoo lang ako."

I'm Happy For Your Arguments

April 8, 2016

What now? Almost 2 months of having together then you argue a lot of things already? Why not just enjoy of each other's company first?

Well I am now seeing myself to Mikko's way of having a relationship, always have rules to follow. And I can imagine already how Rich react with it.

Piece of advice to Mikko:

1. Good job of having 5 "simple" rules in your relationship. I'm happy about it coz Rich is not happy about it. Get the point? I'm enjoying of you guys having relationship conflicts. So keep it up, yo!

Here's the thing you should understand, it might be simple to you because after all, its your rules and you believe in it that its good for your relationship but for him its not because he doesn't want to follow rules and he hates that a lot. He thinks that having rules in a relationship is like making him an obligation to love you instead of just keep making him in love with you.

2. Keep comparing your past relationships to him coz that will help a lot of ruining this new one. Hahaha (evil laugh ☻)!

3. Keep asking him how much he loves you coz that way, you're pushing him away soonest.

Don't worry much. When he will say "I quit", for sure you'll adjust and give up your conditions but here's a thing. When he says "I quit", meaning he's no longer see you in the future but he will definitely try his very best to keep your relationship works but it will never go back to the way you want it. Because for him, having a longer relationship is a necessity for the future relationships. Meaning, you're already completely out of the picture.

Clap clap, congratulations (still bitter!), you're the next ex! LOL!

First Monthsary with Your 'Mylabs' Mikko!

March 14, 2016

Nabasa ko sa nakabukas mong phone SMS, monthsary nyo pala ngaun. First ba yan? So ang anniversary nyo pala ay February 14, 2016. Eh di waw, kayo na ang lumalavlyf ng February 14. (Hahahaha.. Bitter lang!)

A Mikko Gelo Mylabs

March 3, 2016

Early February this year, napansin kong may kausap ka sa viber habang nagtutupi ng damit. Usually hindi mo ginagawa yan pag hindi importante tao sayo ang kausap mo. Ung tipong kahit walang mapag-usapan basta nanjan lang sya sa kabilang line. Then every Saturday lagi ka ng umaalis ng bahay kesyo may burol kang pinuntahan sa Rizal, overnight sa Pasay with officemates and last week overnight sa Cavite with High School friends. Ung sa High School friends, totoo nga pero ung iba parang hindi.

Nabasa ko usapan nyo ng ex mong Brit na si Carl sa fb messenger na proud kang nakipaghalikan sa bago mong bf na si Mikko sa park. Wow, you must really love him to do that in public. Sabi mo pa nga hindi naman masyadong scandalous kc wala masyadong tao but still, in public which hindi mo pinadama sa akin un. Kahit hawak nga lang ng kamay sa bus sinisiko mo na ako agad na tila ba naghahanap ng away. Wait, kelan nga ito ngayari? I backtrack the events na wala ka sa bahay, oh, ung overnight sa Pasay. Hindi pala sa Pasay un kundi kay Mikko. Eh di waw! Anyways, marahil nagtataka ka kung saan ko nakuha ung pangalang Mikko? Nabasa ko lang sa mga goodnight and good morning messages ni Mikko sa phone mo. Kahit na naka-lock pa yan at hindi ko alam ung password, nakikita sa preview ang laman ng messages nyang, "Good morning mylabs. Just woke up." "Antok na ako mylabs. Goodnight. Sana ka-hug kita ngaun." Eh di kyo na ang in love.

Ang bitter ko naman sa mga post na to pero totoo naman na bitter ako kay Mikko dahil noong tayo hindi mo naman pinaranas sa akin ang mga ganyan importansya. Sabagay never naman ako naging importante sa kahit kaninong tao. Nagtataka pa ba ako doon? Hindi na diba? Pero still hindi mo maialis sa akin ang maging bitter. Eh un ang nararamdaman ko eh.

Pero don't get me wrong, tanggap ko na, na wala na ako sa buhay pero hayaan mo nalang na mananatili ka sa buhay at puso ko habang humihinga ako kc kahit kelan, hinding-hindi kita pwedeng kalimutan man.

Oops, hindi ako nakatiis at nabanggit ko si mylabs mo sa usapan sa group sa gmail. Kinagabihan pag-uwi mo, both phones mo may lock na. At hindi lang basta-basta lock, wala pang preview at hindi pa nakikita kung paano i-crack ung lock. Ikaw na tlga ang super secure sa phone. Kahit kelan ka tlga, hindi ka na yata pwedeng magbago at sumirender sa isang tao ung puso mo. Maghahanap at maghahanap ka parin ng iba. Alam ko na ang ugali mong to pero hindi ko rin maintindihan sarili ko kc mahal na mahal parin kita. Ewan ko ba, parang ikaw lang nakikita ko sa mundo eh. Hayz. Pero sa ngaun I'm happy for you man kc nakikita kong happy ka na kausap sya kahit sa mga messages nyo sa phone at sa nakikita ko sa mukha mo. Hindi na laging mainit ulo mo. Hindi ka na nagrereklamo na late na, hindi ka pa nakatulog dahil sya ang kausap mo. Dati pagdating palang ng 10PM galit ka na kc hindi pa nakapatay ang ilaw, hindi ka makakatulog. Pati ung aso, nadadamay, laging napapalo. Sana lang ganyan ka lagi man. Magiging masaya ako kung masaya ka ng tuluyan kahit na hindi pa ako ang kasama mo. Kc ganun naman tlga pag mahal mo ang isang tao kaya mong magparaya alang-alang sa ikakaligaya ng mahal nya. Ganun kita kamahal man.

LET - Secondary on AUGUST 17, 2014 - 8479 DE REGLA, MIKKO ANGELO ABUAN

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