"I'm Jealous Of The Way You're Happy Without Me"

September 23, 2017

I don't know what happened, but I just heard the song Jealous today and it hit me hard. I felt every lyrics of it. Maybe because I know for a fact that you're happy now and it's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way you're happy without me.

Jealous Lyrics
by Labrinth

I'm jealous of the rain
That falls upon your skin
It's closer than my hands have been
I'm jealous of the rain
I'm jealous of the wind
That ripples through your clothes
It's closer than your shadow
Oh, I'm jealous of the wind

'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me

I'm jealous of the nights
That I don't spend with you
I'm wondering who you lay next to
Oh, I'm jealous of the nights
I'm jealous of the love
Love that was in here
Gone for someone else to share
Oh, I'm jealous of the love

'Cause I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me

As I sink in the sand
Watch you slip through my hands
Oh, as I die here another day, yeah
'Cause all I do is cry behind this smile
I wished you the best of
All this world could give
And I told you when you left me
There's nothing to forgive
But I always thought you'd come back, tell me all you found was
Heartbreak and misery
It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me

I-I-It's hard for me to say, I'm jealous of the way
You're happy without me

Songwriters: Josh Kear / Natalie Hemby / Timothy Mckenzie

Happy 31st Birthday Man!

September 18, 2017

Happy Birthday man.

Yehey! Achievement! Why? Because for a year of not seeing you in person, and almost a year of not texting (last message was February 7) and disturbing you anywhere (because most of them I'm blocked), I manage not to contact you in any way. That alone is an achievement.

Since it is your birthday today, I tried to called you at 12AM this morning but I got "barred" warning and can't connect you. I sent an offline message on your hangout but I guess, I would not need to expect any reply from you (or even just seenzone) so I decided to write this for you. I know for sure you won't be able to read this but I need this for myself. Wishing that time will come that I'd be able to laugh reading all this (but I wish very soon).

Having no contact, no communications, without knowing what you're doing, how are you and Dan, is kinda not my thing but I guess its necessary but still I misses you a lot. I still wish you in good health and happy and hopefully contented with what you have.

Until next time man (maybe on your next birthday or maybe not). I love you.